I believe my poor performance in engineering was due in a large part to a lack of passion for my classes. And what is the reason for this lack? I believe it is because I want to express myself through creative work. Work where I can feel the answer instead of having to memorize some nasty equation to figure it out.
I find myself absorbed in photoshop and 3dsm for hours, refining and experimenting.
I genuinely enjoy that.
I could never get myself to sit down and do engineering-related work for more than an hour without wanting to do something else, practically anything, to avoid the work.
I love technology and computers, but I realize now that going into the depth required for real engineering work, takes the fun out of it for me.
I taught myself everything I already know about computers, I think I can teach myself whatever else I really want to know.
After making the decision, a lot of my friends and family say that they saw it coming.
I suppose in a way I've been stubborn in holding myself to a standard of "if you have the intelligence, you must use it for the hardest thing possible"
It's time to focus my mind on something more personally fulfilling to me.
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